Good evening,
As I sit here and watch one of my new favorite shows, "My 600lb life", I am overwhelmed with a sense of empathy and heartbreak. I may never have been as overweight as the people who's stories are laid bare for the world.. but I am currently at my heaviest weight. There is a reoccurring theme of people who have struggled with deep emotional issues treated by over eating since childhood. I can remember feeling fat, ugly, and inadequate as a 6-year old girl. {Side note-I pray and I hope my daughter (or any girl in the world) NEVER feels that way.. Especially at so young of an age} Every time I watch this show, it awakens something in me. Feelings that make me uncomfortable, sometimes because they hit so close to home for me, and other times because my heart truly hurts for them. It has caused me to give serious consideration to pursuing one of my original career goals of becoming a counselor. When I allow myself to take of my critical, judgemental shield, I become the open, vulnerable, compassionate person I believe God wants me to be. I have never considered nutrition or exercise to be within a career field for me but as I have always struggled with body image and self worth, a career involving both counseling and nutrition/exercise seems to be something I would love to find out more about. I am unsure of where this journey will take me, or what the career (much less career path) would look like, but I'm making a commitment to myself to look into and research what kinds of opportunities are out there. I only have one life to live and I want to make an eternal impact for Christ. One of my favorite quotes is "calling is where our gifts and our burdens collide". I can not even tell you guys how much I LOVE this.. I don't know about ya'll but I am so ready play my part in God's story!
This clip is from one of my favorite devotionals and I want to share it because it's been one of the prayers of my heart that I could be a woman who speaks life over other woman. A woman who affirms you in your calling and celebrates with you when the Holy Spirit comes upon you and gives you authority and favor! I seek to be a woman who is not out to compete or compare myself to other woman.. Because it's so easy for me ya'll! So easy
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=23s0SQJZEko
I will close with sharing one last thought.. In this same devotional, Rebekah Lyons "Freefall to Fly-Meaning follows surrender" she talks about how anxiety is often rooted in unfulfilled responsibility. I do not know about anyone else out there but I am so guilty of not being obedient and attentive to what the Lord would have be do and who He would have me be. I am ready to trust and surrender all false control to Him. I'm ready for Him to take the lead and if He knows I can't handle anymore than the next step, I pray I have the faith to take the step in courage and faith, know He has ONLY my best and His glory in mind. Have a blessed weekend ya'll! {My southern husband has rubbed off on me in my almost 10 years of knowing him}.
