Monday, January 12, 2015

Time for a change...

Hello all,

It's been almost 3 years since my last post but I've decided to return to blogging! So much in my life has changed but I am so blessed to be living my happily ever after..

2015 has just started but I have made no official "resolutions" this year.. I definitely am starting a weight loss journey as I am the heaviest I have ever been in my life. I want to lose weight for more reasons for some many reasons.. Here are some of them: I want to take better care of my temple, I want to be healthy, I want to earn self-confidence, I want to be healthy for my husband and my baby (and future babies), I want to be FIT and HEALTHY!

I have always struggled with self-image and self-confidence. I literally HATE what I see when I look in a mirror. Most of the time I do not like going out because I do not feel comfortable in my own skin.. I hate that I worry about people thinking or judging me because of my weight. Honestly though, this change is for me. I am not changing for others.. I'm changing for me and because I want to be around for my family for as long as possible. I want to be a good steward of this body God gave me. I am a child of the Most High God and I am not going to allow my weight to hold me back. I want to be healthy so I can have more energy and serve Him better. Whether that is in raisng my daughter (future kids), being a wife, being a nurse, a daughter, a friend, a listener, etc.. In everything God has called me to, I desire to please Him and live and do to the fullest!

I am  tired of constantly worrying about my appearance.. It literally can consume my thoughts and ruin my day in a matter of seconds. It's time for me to make a decision to change. It's time for me to stop wishing and to start doing! I know this journey will be hard and seemingly impossible at times but so worth while.. I call this a weight loss journey because it is a journey to a lifestyle change. I do not want to be yo-yo dieting for the rest of my life. I want to form good, healthy eating and exercise habits. I want to set an example for my children and for my patients. I want to LIVE FULLY! 

God has so richly blessed me! With His help.. ALL things are possible! I move forward with the journey on a day-by-day basis.. Celebrating in times of success, learning from times of failure.. All to become the BEST woman, daughter, sister, wife, mother, friend, nurse, etc. I can be. All GLORY and HONOR to the King of Kings! I praise Him for all He has done and will continue to do in my life!

Monday, July 2, 2012

Consistency... Crap!

Short blog post today... So frustrated that I feel as if I am the MOST inconsistent person ever. I have so many conflicting thoughts and emotions that it drives me bonkers. I definitely need to work on being a BETTER person. Relying on the ONE who can change me from the inside out.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

"Accept the challenge in order to experience the exhilaration of victory"

To be quite honest, I have a hard time accepting challenges most of the time. I want all the gain and glory that comes with victory without all the work that comes with it. Well, I think its about time I get off my lazy butt and accept the challenge. I must decide to become a better woman; nothing happens by simply wishing for it. People always say, set realistic goals so you don't get discouraged if you don't reach them. However, what's the point in setting mediocre goals? Isn't the whole point of having goals to become better and to strive for the better? Is discouragement really that bad and at what cost does it come to avoid it? I could see where discouragement could be a bad thing but what about the positive... Choose to use the discouragement to make you strive to be better! No one is a product of circumstance, everyone is a product of choice.. Everyone goes through tough times and seriously rough patches (granted, some more than others). It is entirely up to you whether you CHOOSE to be better and stronger or CHOOSE to be bitter and weak. I am choosing to be better and have set the following (short and long term) goals for myself (more to come in the future):

1. Return to my first Love, the One who gives me life and has so graciously adopted me as a child of the King;
HE must INCREASE. i must decrease daily
2. BE 110-115lbs. about a year from now, February 1, 2013
3. Become an ever bettering woman, wife, daughter, sister, friend, student, and mentor
4. Be a world changer and a life IMPACT-er
5. RESPECT everyone. LOVE deeper. WALK faithfully. BELIEVE harder. CHOOSE happiness. LIVE humbly. FORGIVE freely. LAUGH everyday. BE courageous. BE disciplined. BE integrity. BE hope. BE FOREVER-CHANGED

I am relying 110% on the POWER of the One who saved me; I can't do this on my own... Challenge me, keep me accountable-I hope you will dear bloggers.

"You have to get out of the boat to walk on water"

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

House and home are two words that are NOT interchangable

Study, study, study... Run/exercise, eat, breath, study, study, study... insignificant amounts of sleep = this nursing student's life.

There's a rather sizable hole right in the middle of my kitchen ceiling. I can now look upon parts of the house I never wish to see again. All I can hope and pray for is that the repair of the ceiling is not ridiculously expensive. It was difficult enough to fix the plumbing problem since our -not so- lovely warranty company are such butt wipes. Our company covered $43 dollars of a $143 dollar bill.. incredibly helpful. I hope nothing else goes wrong with our house because this warranty company is pretty incompetent.

I am so thankful that there is a difference between a house and a home. It's a very good thing that the house condition is not a reflection of the condition of the home. The value of a good house may be any number that fluctuates and follows patterns of an -uncertain- economy. However, the value of a good home is and cannot be bought; rather by nature, it is priceless. Although the condition of my house is that exactly up to par, I'm thankful that this has no effect on the condition of our home. Sure, stress levels are higher when unexpected expenses arise on top of existing expenses. Can everybody sing, oh the joys of homeownership? At the end of the day, I am thankful to have a house in an economy with ever-increasing foreclosures. However, I am infinitely more grateful that I have a home both in this life and in eternity.

Its hard to keep everything in perspective until you step back and look at the bigger picture. I am so grateful to have a God that not only can see the BIG picture, but loves me enough to let me play a part in that for His honor and glory.

"Then Job arose and tore his robe and shaved his head, and he fell to the ground and worshiped. He said,

'Naked I came from my mother’s womb,
And naked I shall return there.
The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away.
Blessed be the name of the LORD.'

Through all this Job did not sin nor did he blame God."
- Job 1:20-22

What a beautiful reminder of true worship and trust in God...

In other news:

Apparently the White House referred to Christmas Trees as “Holiday Trees” for the first time this year which prompted CBS presenter, Ben Stein, to present this piece which I would like to share with you. I think it applies just as much to many countries as it does to America . . .

The following was written by Ben Stein and recited by him on CBS Sunday Morning Commentary.

My confession:

I am a Jew, and every single one of my ancestors was Jewish. And it does not bother me even a little bit when people call those beautiful lit up, bejewelled trees, Christmas trees. I don't feel threatened. I don't feel discriminated against. That's what they are, Christmas trees.

It doesn't bother me a bit when people say, “Merry Christmas” to me. I don't think they are slighting me or getting ready to put me in a ghetto. In fact, I kind of like it. It shows that we are all brothers and sisters celebrating this happy time of year. It doesn't bother me at all that there is a manger scene on display at a key intersection near my beach house in Malibu. If people want a crib, it's just as fine with me as is the Menorah a few hundred yards away.

I don't like getting pushed around for being a Jew, and I don't think Christians like getting pushed around for being Christians. I think people who believe in God are sick and tired of getting pushed around, period. I have no idea where the concept came from, that America is an explicitly atheist country. I can't find it in the Constitution and I don't like it being shoved down my throat.

Or maybe I can put it another way: where did the idea come from that we should worship celebrities and we aren't allowed to worship God? I guess that's a sign that I'm getting old, too. But there are a lot of us who are wondering where these celebrities came from and where the America we knew went to.

In light of the many jokes we send to one another for a laugh, this is a little different: This is not intended to be a joke; it's not funny, it's intended to get you thinking.

Billy Graham's daughter was interviewed on the Early Show and Jane Clayson asked her: “How could God let something like this happen?” (regarding Hurricane Katrina). Anne Graham gave an extremely profound and insightful response. She said: “I believe God is deeply saddened by this, just as we are, but for years we've been telling God to get out of our schools, to get out of our government and to get out of our lives. And being the gentleman He is, I believe He has calmly backed out. How can we expect God to give us His blessing and His protection if we demand He leave us alone?”

In light of recent events... terrorists attack, school shootings, etc. I think it started when Madeleine Murray O'Hare (she was murdered, her body found a few years ago) complained she didn't want prayer in our schools, and we said OK. Then someone said you better not read the Bible in school. The Bible says thou shalt not kill, thou shalt not steal, and love your neighbour as yourself. And we said OK.

Then Dr. Benjamin Spock said we shouldn't spank our children when they misbehave, because their little personalities would be warped and we might damage their self-esteem (Dr. Spock's son committed suicide). We said an expert should know what he's talking about. And we said okay.

Now we're asking ourselves why our children have no conscience, why they don't know right from wrong, and why it doesn't bother them to kill strangers, their classmates, and themselves.

Probably, if we think about it long and hard enough, we can figure it out. I think it has a great deal to do with 'WE REAP WHAT WE SOW.'

Funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell. Funny how we believe what the newspapers say, but question what the Bible says. Funny how you can send 'jokes' through e-mail and they spread like wildfire, but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing. Funny how lewd, crude, vulgar and obscene articles pass freely through cyberspace, but public discussion of God is suppressed in the school and workplace.

Are you laughing yet?

Funny how when you forward this message, you will not send it to many on your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they will think of you for sending it.

Funny how we can be more worried about what other people think of us than what God thinks of us.

Pass it on if you think it has merit.

If not, then just discard it.... no one will know you did. But if you discard this thought process, don't sit back and complain about what bad shape the world is in.

My Best Regards, Honestly and respectfully,

Ben Stein

Love this! Beautiful honesty is never over-rated. I will not start my Obama-rant because my job is to pray for him and everyone on down...

Best wishes and love; as my cute nephew would say, *cheers*

Monday, October 24, 2011

Ramblings of a rather stressed out nursing student

First, my largest of apologies for making this post a rather crabby and child-like posts of complaints.

My day started off with getting up at 5:00 AM and wondering if I was going to survive after approximately five short hours of sleep. I was supposed to car pool with my husband to work (to save gas in the lovely economy) however, he had to leave in a hurry and I was not ready. Needless to say, I fell back asleep (dressed and ready for school), woke up at 7:00 AM frazzled and hurriedly leaving my house. I get to school only to find out that a grade for a nursing test I took LAST MONDAY cannot be posted because ONE person has not taken the test. *Insert one big yell and scream, stomping of the feet, general frustration and not nice things being said* I feel much better, don't you? I am really just kidding but it seems most people in the world today act just like this... Following an illogical pattern of if I act like a toddler or small child again, throw a temper tantrum, get furious with everyone and everything, things will obviously work out well (the way I intended). When did it become okay to be so narcissistic? I am just as guilty as everyone else and it makes me sad to think how ungrateful and rather self indulgent I have become. So the point being... GET OVER YOURSELF and your sense of entitlement. We are not entitled to anything, even the air we breathe and the life we have are gifts from an almighty God who decided to love us enough to give us free will among many other things we do not deserve.

I have so much to be grateful for and as tired and as busy as I am, I should never lose sight of the end goal. So I just want to close with this as an encouragement/challenge to myself as well as whoever else would like to take it.

"But whatever things were gain to me, those things I have counted as loss for the sake of Christ. More than that, I count all things to be loss in view of the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them but rubbish so that I may gain Christ, and may be found in Him, not having a righteousness of my own derived from the Law, but that which is through faith in Christ, the righteousness which comes from God on the basis of faith, that I may know Him and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death; in order that I may attain to the resurrection from the dead. Not that I have already obtained it or have already become perfect, but I press on so that I may lay hold of that for which also I was laid hold of by Christ Jesus. Brethren, I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet; but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. Let us therefore, as many as are perfect, have this attitude; and if in anything you have a different attitude, God will reveal that also to you; however, let us keep living by that same standard to which we have attained. "
- Philippians 3:7-16

*Hope never lose sight of it... Its what keeps us going through the darkest of storms; lots of loveeeee to everyone!

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Elegant Nostalgia

Oh blog, I have not seen you since the Xanga days... Those were the good simple days. Now its all Twitter, Facebook, and maybe some Myspace. All kids are getting an education in how to text rather than communicate. Yes, there is a difference between texting and the art of communicating. Texting has just become one more obstacle in the challenge of good communication. Don't get me wrong, I love texting and find it very convenient in many situations. However, nothing can take the place of sitting in a quiet coffee house with a good friend having a genuine conversation. In honor of the fact that I waste too much time on Facebook, I am going to start blogging again. I am not cool enough for Facebook and strangely enough, I'm completely happy with that (:

In closing:

Dear Facebook,

You are ridiculous.