Ramblings of a rather stressed out nursing student

First, my largest of apologies for making this post a rather crabby and child-like posts of complaints.

My day started off with getting up at 5:00 AM and wondering if I was going to survive after approximately five short hours of sleep. I was supposed to car pool with my husband to work (to save gas in the lovely economy) however, he had to leave in a hurry and I was not ready. Needless to say, I fell back asleep (dressed and ready for school), woke up at 7:00 AM frazzled and hurriedly leaving my house. I get to school only to find out that a grade for a nursing test I took LAST MONDAY cannot be posted because ONE person has not taken the test. *Insert one big yell and scream, stomping of the feet, general frustration and not nice things being said* I feel much better, don't you? I am really just kidding but it seems most people in the world today act just like this... Following an illogical pattern of if I act like a toddler or small child again, throw a temper tantrum, get furious with everyone and everything, things will obviously work out well (the way I intended). When did it become okay to be so narcissistic? I am just as guilty as everyone else and it makes me sad to think how ungrateful and rather self indulgent I have become. So the point being... GET OVER YOURSELF and your sense of entitlement. We are not entitled to anything, even the air we breathe and the life we have are gifts from an almighty God who decided to love us enough to give us free will among many other things we do not deserve.

I have so much to be grateful for and as tired and as busy as I am, I should never lose sight of the end goal. So I just want to close with this as an encouragement/challenge to myself as well as whoever else would like to take it.

"But whatever things were gain to me, those things I have counted as loss for the sake of Christ. More than that, I count all things to be loss in view of the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them but rubbish so that I may gain Christ, and may be found in Him, not having a righteousness of my own derived from the Law, but that which is through faith in Christ, the righteousness which comes from God on the basis of faith, that I may know Him and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death; in order that I may attain to the resurrection from the dead. Not that I have already obtained it or have already become perfect, but I press on so that I may lay hold of that for which also I was laid hold of by Christ Jesus. Brethren, I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet; but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. Let us therefore, as many as are perfect, have this attitude; and if in anything you have a different attitude, God will reveal that also to you; however, let us keep living by that same standard to which we have attained. "
- Philippians 3:7-16

*Hope never lose sight of it... Its what keeps us going through the darkest of storms; lots of loveeeee to everyone!